who says i can't get stoned?

at 19 i needed time to hurry up.


at 19 i thought "this is the end."
at 21 i think "there is no end."
at 19 i felt like "i know who i want to be."
at 21 i feel like "shit, i hope i know before i die."
at 19 i wanted to be skinny.
at 21 i want to stay as beautiful as i feel now.
at 19 i hated change.
at 21 i hate change.
at 19 i didn't want to leave.
at 21 i don't want to sit still.
at 19 i saw the "definitely's."
at 21 i see the "i really hope so, but in a day this might change."
at 19 i heard the song
at 21 i hear the pieces.
at 19 i wondered "if."
at 21 i wonder "when."
at 19 i made exceptions.
at 21 i make rules.
at 19 i realized the game.
at 21 i realized it's not too much fun to play.
at 19 i got sidetracked.
at 21 i got the fuck over it.
at 19 i learned i'd been given so many different tools.
at 21 i learn how to use them.
at 19 i said "i love you."
at 21 i say "i love me."



at 21 i need time to stop.



at every age, at some point, we're "really sure this time".
this feeling is only to hold us over.

because if we knew that the reality was that we'd never be sure?
we'd have nothing to run the miles for.